You're a sweet sugar drip syrup
I can't drink any more or I'll puke
I feel the liquid flowing down my throat
I stand in the bathroom
I look in front of me
I see the face look back out from the mirror
But it doesn't look any clearer
I'm a heartless little motherfucker
I get by on the little things
I spit out gooey drip
I didn't want slip anyhow
Yet I go back for more
This I don't know how to address
I always feel like I'm in a mess
You're too saccharine for anyone to bear
And I'm astonished that I put up with you for so long
I hope you're hurt, I hope you're sad, I want awful things to happen to you
Though you don't deserve it, and I hope you never have to hear this song
You're a light-inducing particle
You float around me in the air
You're up on everything
I try to force myself to care
I end up on the floor
I can't stop me from falling down
And I don't think you need me around
I'm a bitter little pill to swallow
I don't go down without a glass
You're always looking forward
I seem to just dwell on the past
I wait for you to leave me cold
But I guess I'm just what you like
I guess I'd like to ask you why
You're too saccharine for anyone to bear
And I'm astonished that I put up with you for so long
I hope you're hurt, I hope you're sad, I want awful things to happen to you
Though you don't deserve it, and I hope you never have to hear this song
Maybe I'm wrong and this is what is right and
I will just stay silent, accept it 'cause that's what life's about
I don't need anything, I just exist for other people
I'm too cynical for anyone to bear
And I'm astonished that you put up with with for so long
I hope you're hurt, I hope you're sad, I want awful things to happen to you
Though you don't deserve it, and I hope you never have to hear this song
credits
from With Distance,
released November 18, 2017
April - vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass programming, drums