(xi) COMFORT.
or, “Remember to Breathe.”
May 2016.
lyrics
Everyone's stupid, me included
I really need to work on that sometime
But it's too much work to even try
Yes, it's too much work to socialise
Everyone's stupid, you excluded
No, I'm just kidding, I fucking hate you
Or at least I wish I could
Oh God, I really wish I could
I read a fanfic 'bout a serial killer
She was a horse and tortured victims until they died
And I've been thinking 'bout what it would be like
To know your friend had ended others' lives
I've never wanted to kill anyone
Well, there's one person, but I don't think that she really counts
I guess I hate people the more I know them
And this gal's the one I know the best.
I need a little comfort in my life
I wish I had a shoulder to cry on
I wish I could believe I could be loved by somebody that I could stand
I need someone to hold me through the night
But also to keep their distance
I wish I could love someone in a way that made sense
Everyone's stupid, me included
I really need to work on that sometime
But it's too much work to even try
Yes, it's too much work to socialise
Everyone's stupid, you excluded
No, I'm just kidding, I fucking hate you
Or at least I wish I could
Oh God, I really fucking wish I could
I took a picture of myself in the mirror
I don't know why I did it and it wasn't such a bright idea
I just sat and stared at my own image
And I wondered where and when I went wrong
It takes a long time to love yourself
It only takes a minute to hate yourself
And I don't have that much time
So I'll go with which one's expedited
I need a little comfort in my life
I wish I had a shoulder to cry on
I wish I could believe I could be loved by somebody that I could stand
I need someone to hold me through the night
But also to keep their distance
I wish I could love someone in a way that made sense
I'm so stupid, you're so stupid
I don't know how to deal with that
And I don't know how to be myself
And I don't know how to love you still
I'm exhausted, feeling lost and
I never had a home in you
And I don't think there's anyone else out there
No, I don't think there's anyone else out there
credits
from I Shiver,
released June 15, 2017
April - vocals, electric guitar, bass guitar, drums