(xiii) I AM GOING TO BE HAPPY.
or, “Lies I’ve Told You to Make You Feel Better.”
February 2016.
lyrics
I'm making mistakes every day, and I know it
I'm taking my time every day, and I show it
I'm sick and tired of dissatisfaction and ultimate apathy
Not that I'm going to do anything about it but it helps to recognise these things
I'm gonna be happy and present myself anew
Yes, I'm gonna be happy if it's the last thing that I do
I'm not sure if I'm jealous, or maybe I just wish I were
I feel like wanting things like that would just make life easier
I don't wanna take the time from every day to sit around and think about the state of things and how I wanna be in several years from now and what I wanna do in time and how not to be stressed about the little things that always seem to mess me up and I don't wanna have to make decisions 'bout the opportunities and things that have a tendency to pop right up in front of me and I don't have the wherewithal to finish anything that doesn't take more than a couple minutes and I'll admit that
I am gonna be happy
I am gonna be happy
I said I am going to be happy
And you're gonna be happy too
I'm gonna be happy and present myself anew
Yes, I'm gonna be happy if it's the last thing that I do
And I'm gonna be overjoyed when at last I can feel that way
Yes, I'm gonna be happy, and that's all I want to say
I've got five fingers in a fist, moving towards your chest
It's part of a new thing I'm trying where I try to live without any regrets
And I want to leave this town, and I want to live a new life
But the frozen north ain't comfortable; I'd die amongst the ice
I'm always happy for everybody else, and now I'm trying to be happy for myself
And I'll be happy, for oh-so-many days, if I forget that you'll always be far away
And I'm forgetting about all the smokes and cuts, I just need to live my life out in a way I want
And I am pulling you down from outer space, and I am listening to every goddamn word that you say
I'm gonna be happy and present myself anew
Yes, I'm gonna be happy if it's the last thing that I do
And I'm gonna be overjoyed when at last I can feel that way
Yes, I'm gonna be happy, and that's all I want to say
credits
from I Shiver,
released June 15, 2017
April - vocals, electric guitar, bass guitar, drums
Korean artist Jay Knife uses ukelele, vocal loops, and an iPad to translate her personal experiences into honest, heartfelt pop music. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 4, 2021
Market, from Melbourne, fuse soul and chillwave on a wonderfully woozy song with rubbery guitars & breathy harmonies. Bandcamp New & Notable Sep 19, 2020