Welcome to the state you live in Welcome to the way you live your life And I don't want to tell you How it goes, 'cause no one knows Where I am and how to give a damn About you, I know I'm unforgivable I know you're living miserable So I welcome you to open arms I'm holding out for hope And telling you I'm not afraid anymore Take your time, God knows I need it too, that's all And I leave it up to you

A verse to bring her to sleep She needs words to help her down 'Cause in the morning at work outside She's so self-conscious in the window She lingers on, and I see her from my desk I'd like to reach out to her, but I know it's not my place She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse And find recourse She'd rather hear the truth than have me lie And I know I've got holes in my alibi But I don't know if I could look her in the eye And tell her that I know what's wrong But I'm afraid that she won't want to change I've seen her around, and I can see her fingers (see her fingers swell) She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse And find recourse She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse

Truth is I never thought of us together You're just a friend of mine We should know better, this can't last forever But kiss me one more time Romance is fine, pour me some wine Tell me it's just for the fun of it Far from your eyes, hard to deny when I don't want love, don't want none of it If you want to, you can stay the night I don't want to be the one, the one If you want to, you can hold me tight I don't want to be the one, the one It's too much pressure It's too much pressure It's too much pressure I don't want to be the one, the one We're cooking dinner, I wear your socks and slippers It's been a long, long day It's just so easy, love the way you read me I never have to say Romance is fine, pour me some wine Tell me it's just for the fun of it Far from your eyes, hard to deny when I don't want love, don't want none of it If you want to, you can stay the night I don't want to be the one, the one If you want to, you can hold me tight I don't want to be the one, the one It's too much pressure It's too much pressure It's too much pressure I don't want to be the one, the one Don't fall in love, fall in love, fall in love, fall in love Don't fall in love, fall in love, fall in love, fall in love Don't fall in love, fall in love, fall in love, fall in love Don't fall in love, fall in love, fall in love, fall in love If you want to, you can stay the night I don't want to be the one, the one If you want to, you can hold me tight I don't want to be the one, the one It's too much pressure It's too much pressure It's too much pressure I don't want to be the one, the one

I think I'm stuck in the intellectuality of textbook situations that involve me and you-u Figure A: Here's my dumb reflection in the window of a store and Figure B: I don't know what to do-o Figure C: is where things start to stop making any sense, I'll blame pretense and obfuscation on my part I'll spare you the rest and before you protest, I'll have you know that I just made it all up I made it all up I made it up and I'll admit that I wanna be created I wanna be appreciated I want to build myself up and wait for someone to knock me down I wanna be a realist I wanna be idealistic I wanna take tectonic plates and shift them all around like on a Rubik's cube I'd like you all to pretend that was coherent I have no ardor, I feel like death I'd rather if you didn't sweat I can't afford to let teenage passion be beyond me (but here we are?) And in this life that's so collegiate I try my best to be expedient The earlier I get someplace will have an effect on when it ends I just wait for it to end Whether or not that doom impends I'd like to ask you what you think about this great idea I had; let me clear my throat, 'cause I think it's a good one Well, I was wondering, well, if you didn't mind, I mean, I guess I want to know if we could be Facebook official And it's okay if you say no, and it's okay if it's too early, and it's fine with me if you just don't think of us that way But I was hoping, wishing, praying, getting down onto my knees, I trick myself into having feelings and I don't go halfway No, I can't really breathe Here, let me take off the mask, um

Give me the cost of the albatross And wear it 'round your neck for size Don't let it get you down I'm looking inside your house Oh, and it smells so nice Your house always looks so nice Maybe they're twice as high, laughing Maybe the time is right, you know Promise me not to leave I'm looking inside your brain And Christ, it's a cluttered mess I love you, I must confess

Take me with you when you leave You're off t(w)o lands beyond, and I'm left bittersweet Tell me how's the atmosphere When you look down to Earth, remember me down here I don't think that I'll have any sympathy When you're swallowed up by her gravity Her embrace is your grave plot But by then you'll be long gone I think in all that time I will have to have let you go In a thousand years, they will find what's left I'd say a few pieces of metal, if I had to hazard a guess Time goes by like it's worthless I just think of our last kiss If in all those years, I'm here, I'd probably just sit there and watch But I'm still jealous of you and her What do I lack that's had by Jupiter? I remember months ago I caught you red-faced, looking in your telescope

I can't remember a year ago I can't remember last night Somewhere in the furniture I swear I had myself But I lost it with the crumbs between the cracks Take less here for granted Take yourself away You don't need the things you have The silk pajamas, the leather jacket You don't need the anorak Your mama's socks, dad's knife collection Think about your bedtime Hat hair's in the past You don't need your silver spoon Your mixtapes and Gorilla Glue I never was in love with you I only loved your hat (I only, only, only loved your hat) You'll throw out all your nice knit caps And all that's left is the stack of other hats You'll toss out all the baseball caps And all that's left is your Jimmy Carter hat And all that's left is your Jimmy Carter hat And all you'll wear is your Jimmy Carter hat

If I could travel back in time I'd give myself a body, give myself a body In which I could feel beautiful My only regret is being born My only regret is being born It hits me hard But don't tell me it's not far I know the truth And I have nothing to lose Go, go, go, don't resist it Turn, turn, turn, don't you miss it Switch off the lights and take cover Don't make a sound 'til it's over If I could travel back in time I'd give myself a body, give myself a body In which I could feel beautiful My only regret is being born My only regret is being born I lose control I learn to spit out all my bile and vitriol I know where I am But that doesn't change what I am Stab, stab, stab and then twist it Rip out the knife, then your fist hits Lines start to blur in between you Who's not to say that it's not true? If I could travel back in, travel back in time I'd give myself a body, give myself a body In which I could feel beautiful My only regret is being born If I could travel back in time I'd give myself a body, give myself a body In which I could feel beautiful My only regret is being born My only regret is being born My only regret is being born My only regret is being born My only regret is being born Oh, whoa oh Oh, whoa oh Oh, whoa oh Oh, whoa oh And I try as hard as I can to try to live with how I am I push it to the back of my mind and I try not to look in the mirror And I try to reconcile that I'll never be the way I want I'll always be existing in a form that I'll never like And I am trying to be happy, and I am trying to be happy I'm busy just existing, and something feels missing, but it's something that I'll never have

Smoke billows below, it's stop-and-go traffic All down the roadway, into the neighbourhood Day after day and year after year But nothing changes I live alone in a bungalow Go past the park and leave behind the condos House after house and street after street We have to make ends meet And though everybody dies frustrated and sad You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful And though everybody dies cold and alone You're powerful, you're powerful, you're powerful, you're powerful And though you've come up to the end of the sidewalk Go on, move on, go by, say bye-bye And date and sign the paper I'm living tired, over up and under Moon overhead, glow down on asunder Life pouring through the glassy wall I've never felt so tall I'm holding on 'til the end of the book But every night when I go to sleep I never know if I will wake up in the morning And though everybody dies frustrated and sad You're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful And though everybody dies cold and alone You're powerful, you're powerful, you're powerful, you're powerful And though everybody dies frustrated and sad And though everybody dies cold and alone And though you've come up to the end of the sidewalk Go on, move on, go by, say bye-bye And date and sign the paper

I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself But I wouldn't, no I wouldn't But that's not to say that I couldn't I don't have a plan, but I'm sure I could throw something together I need to get away from this place Chekhov's gun is in my mouth and fuck if I'm not gonna use it I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'd fucking love to punish myself for all the things I've done Even if they're only nebulously defined Let every muscle and structure and bone collapse Let myself atrophy into an amorphous blob 'Cause that's just who I am And I don't give a damn No, I don't give a damn I need to figure out some way for me to get through the day But how can I, when the static sings my name? I have an open wound whose name is Me And I'm trying to sew stitches but they won't keep themselves sewn up I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself I'm so fucking bored I could kill myself

Amy, sit next to me and turn towards me with that mercurial gaze I'm amazed that you haven't noticed with how long I've been staring Amy, our victory excuses me when I hold your hand Oh, Amy, you scare me, and what am I supposed to do? Amy, I know I spend a lot of time opining on the boys But all I want to do is just get close to you Oh, Amy, to tell the truth when you embrace me I am over the moon And when we're out together on a sunny Sunday afternoon It's nice to know you're there for me As we sit in café chairs and talk over some tea And even though I cherish what we have and know it's probably all there is Deep down in my heart, I want more Amy, with an intellect like yours I'm sure you could have anyone you like And yet you're alone, and I can't help but wonder why that is And sometimes, well, do you send me signals? How could I tell? Oh, Amy, is it true? Do you want me too?

Just one more drink and then I should be on my way home I'm not entirely sure what you're talking about I've had a really nice time, but my dogs need to be fed I must say that in the right light, you look like Shackleton Comment allez-vous ce soir? Je suis comme ci comme ça Yes, a penguin taught me French back in Antarctica Yes, I could show you the way that shadows colonize snow Ice breaking up on the bay off the Lassiter Coast Light failing over the pole as every longitude leads Up to your frostbitten feet, oh, you're very sweet Thank you for the flowers and the book by Derrida But I must be getting back to dear Antarctica Say, do you have a ship and a dozen able men That maybe you could lend me? Oh, Antarctica Oh, Antarctica

I live my life Time goes by I'm ticking down the clock Until I die I move on I'm always moving on I find it hard to hold on To things before they're gone You live your life, and I'll do mine I'm busy just existing [scatting] You live your life, and I'll do mine I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing And I know that you would wish the best for me (and I know you would wish the best) And I know that you would want me to be happy (and I know you would lift me up) And I know that you can't see that I'm just treading water (I'm just floating in the sea) And I know that you can't help but make me feel much smaller But I ask of you: please live your life, and I'll focus on mine I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy just existing I'm busy living my life

Dextro, cough down two for one, I might as well Glass of water on the desk, box of crackers to my right Pinch nose and close my eyes, wait a while, wait a while Every time, every time, why would I...? Why would I? I watch the hours pass by Thirteen to twenty five Sheets and sleep over headache dreams Sink teeth into the night The plastic bottles, the cardboard boxes The bag sits beneath the filth, it sits in the back of my head Receipts, receipts, you only exist to expose me Isn't that who I am whether I like it or not? I watch the hours pass by Thirteen to twenty five Sheets and sleep over headache dreams Sink teeth into the night I watch the blue inclined Thrumming in tune with mine Pleas and please echo through the eaves Sink teeth into my spine

Superman, swallow your Kryptonite Holding hands, contemplate suicide Old King Tut lies in his crypt tonight Summer's here, but she's not anymore Gone away, when I want her here today (gone away, she's gone away) Out of sync, out of drink, out of sight (gone away, she's gone away) But the time is right and I need you here tonight (gone away, she's gone away) Gone away, she's gone away Stars are bright, and I will be watching Dogs are barking at the sky Hands that clutch and tear at angry pillows Strangers' eyes are asking why Superman, swallow your Kryptonite Holding hands, contemplate suicide Old King Tut lies in his crypt tonight Summer's here, but she's not anymore Gone away, when I want her here today (gone away, she's gone away) Out of sync, out of drink, out of sight (gone away, she's gone away) But the time is right and I need you here tonight (gone away, she's gone away) Gone away, she's gone away Stars are bright, and I will be watching Dogs are barking at the sky Hands that clutch and tear at angry pillows Strangers' eyes are asking why Asking why Asking why Asking why

I'm torn asunder and can't help but wonder if you're there No one to help me, it seems like you've vanished in thin air I'm torn in two and it's making me blue but the way that I felt wasn't worth all the hurt and now I'm somewhere else and I don't give a shit whether you'll care I saved myself from the hell that you turned my life into Calling me back won't fix things and that's something that you knew Taking great pains to restrain how I felt didn't do no one favours, at least by my count so let's Just swear to silence, say there's nothing left for me and you Here's what you tell me: you say you feel empty without me You tell me I am something and someone you really need Maybe you should have thought of consequences before you did things that would push me away and, well No-one would blame me for leaving you cold and I can't understand why you can't comprehend this and Even though I don't love you anymore, I still hope you take care and there's no better way than to Pack up your feelings for me and then set those feelings free I'm torn asunder and can't help but wonder if you're there

Why are there so many songs about rainbows And what's on the other side? Rainbows are visions, but only illusions And rainbows have nothing to hide So we've been told, and some choose to believe it I know they're wrong, wait and see Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection The lovers, the dreamers, and me You said that every wish would be heard and answered When wished on the morning star Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it Look what it's done so far What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing And what do we think we might see? Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection The lovers, the dreamers, and me All of under its spell We know that it's probably magic Have you been half-asleep, and have you heard voices? I've heard them calling my name Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors? The voice might be one and the same I've heard it too many times to ignore it It's something that I'm supposed to be Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection The lovers, the dreamers, and me La da da dee da da doo La da dee da da da da doo

She said I look pretty in pink Oh, thank you, I said, but I don't think it suits me I feel so cold inside my veins and pulled back in my head She said it doesn't matter if I show up today Nobody will notice and they'll move on without you, it's better just to stay I can feel the states beneath me Louisiana at my feet I don't recognise the pieces I'm becoming incomplete I live a lonely life but it's mine And no-one can take that away from me But sometimes, I wish they could, sometimes I know I can't take care of myself She said the heartache runs in those bitter lines of pink I feel so overwrought I don't know what to think I can feel the weight above me Crushing down on what's below I can't recollect the pieces There is nothing I don't know

You've taken me for granted and made me wait on you You never make me feel good or even say thank you I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here I'm going to find somebody who appreciates me I know that I'm a good catch so I should be happy But you've taken me for granted and made me wait on you You never make me feel good or even say thank you I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here You are going to feel stupid some day When you realize what you threw away Nobody else can make you feel like I do Have a nice life without me, you fool! I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here I'm out of here I ain't comin' back no more (ain't comin' back no more) Have yourself a nice life 'Cause I'm out of here

About another hour 'til the train gets here If it runs on time The rumbling is crystal clear There's another on the line A softer world of greys and blues The wind is whistling Looking past the residue Though beyond is nothing And I want you to tell me And I really want to know When you tried to hang yourself from the rafters Why didn't you leave a note? Once I'm on the train, I lay back in my seat It's a long way back to Haverford and I need to get some sleep I'm tired of the endless thoughts that run through my head I wish I couldn't think of things I should've done instead And I want you to tell me And I really want to know When you tried to hang yourself from the rafters Why didn't you leave a note? It's okay, I'm not angry I'm just really glad you're safe Though I wish you could have told me Before things just got away

September girls do so much I was your butch, and you were touched I loved you, well, nevermind I've been crying all the time December girls got it bad December girls got it bad September girls, I don't know why How can I deny what's inside? Even though I'll keep away They will love all our days December girls got it bad December girls got it bad When I get to bed late at night That's the time she makes things right Oh, when she lies next to me September girls do so much I was your butch, and you were touched I loved you, well, nevermind I've been crying all the time December girls got it bad December girls got it bad December girls got it bad, ooh

Deary diary, have I given up yet? How much time do I have left? She loves me; she loves me not Does it matter in the end? I've got a million different ways to live my life I've got a million different ways I could be right How do I love thee? Let me count the ways Circle gets the square, night turns to day Once more with feeling before I stop And go, and go, and go I've got a million different ways to live my life I've got a million different ways I could be right I've got a million different ways to waste my time And there's a million others waiting in line I'm a wreck, you know I'm a mess Held together by some string and tape Overreaching, underachieving It's no wonder, it's no wonder

It's Thursday when I write this song It's Friday when you pick up On Saturday, I'm at my parents' so you're out of luck On Sunday, you've got church And I think of sleeping in And Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and we circle 'round the bend You want to fuck like rabbits But I don't know if I'm into you And I still don't know if that is in the cards You want to fuck like rabbits But I'm seven states away I've never met you, and now I think I never will We never talk anymore, oh no I'm afraid of what we've become I make mistakes like it's my full time job So maybe this whole thing was just a mistake You want to fuck like rabbits But I don't know if I'm into you And I still don't know if that is in the cards You want to fuck like rabbits But I'm seven states away I've never met you, and now I think I never will You think you can have it, just cause you want it I think you've a lot to learn You pull out all the stops, hop like a rabbit hops But the dance don't mean you deserve it

I don't care if the sun turns to rain I will bask in nature's splendour I don't care if the pleasure turns to pain I will show God I'll endure I don't mind if the water turns to wine Though for seven months I'll find myself parched I don't need any of your sympathy It's clear that you don't know where to start I think by now you know I think I've lost it Somewhere in everyday 'Cause there's a cost to The things we take for granted And I really have to hand it to you You put up with the things I do And I don't know how you stand it

Give me the cost of the albatross And wear it 'round your neck for size Don't let it get you down I'm looking inside your house Oh, and it smells so nice Your house always looks so nice Maybe they're twice as high, laughing Maybe the time is right, you know Promise me not to leave I'm looking inside your brain And Christ, it's a cluttered mess I love you, I must confess

She's chasing shots of Robitussin with water She's wasting time, not doing things that she oughta She can't remember the last time that she had her life together The drugs won't work right She's running low on life And every night when she goes to bed, she don't know if the next day will come She's just another dead person on the internet She's just another inactive blog, a list of regrets She's just another username, a character string, an index Her writing's on the wall, year after year The dust is gathering, the links are rotting away And bit by bit every trace is erased 'til all that's left is a name She's popping pills that are giving her headaches She's brushing wrappers aside, slips through the days She's wondering what time it is and why the light's so bright There's a fire inside her skull And she wonders if it could tear a hole The shiver shiver's whispering, the strings are delicate She's just another dead person on the internet She's just another inactive blog, a list of regrets She's just another username, a character string, an index Her writing's on the wall, year after year The dust is gathering, the links are rotting away And bit by bit every trace is erased 'til all that's left is a name

It's my father's voice trailing off Sailors sailing off in the morning to fight the war For the air-conditioned rooms At the top of the stairs, at the head of the table But it takes all the life out of me When it's hot in the poor places tonight I'm not going outside There's bourbon on the breath Of the singer you love so much, he doesn't care He takes all of his words from the books That you don't read anyway His jaw's been broken and his bandage is wrapped too tight His fangs have been pulled and I really wanna see you tonight But it takes all the breath out of me How they cried all over overseas When it's hot in the poor places tonight I'm not going outside And it makes no difference to me How they cried all over overseas When it's hot in the poor places tonight I'm not going outside When it's hot in the poor places tonight I'm not going outside I'm not going outside I'm not going outside I'm not going outside

She needs someone to sing her to sleep She needs somebody's arms to hold her down And in the morning at work and outside She's so self-conscious 'bout that daytime scowl She lingers on and I know it's not my place But I want to reach out to her, but I know she'd punch my face She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse She'd rather hear the truth than have me lie And I know I've got holes in my alibi But I don't know if I could look her in the eye And tell her that I know what's wrong And I'm afraid that she won't want to change I know her well, I can see when her knuckles swell She's got her drug knuckles out in full force She's gotta reconsider and feel remorse

I'm gonna drown myself in the pastel ocean down in Santa Monica I'm gonna walk down to the pier and go on the Ferris wheel I'm gonna wait until it gets to the top and then I'm gonna look over the edge And somewhere spiralling through vertigo I'll look back up and think about what you said: "I'm not upset, I'm just tired I'm gonna go on and I'll wake up and it'll be Monday"