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May 2016
Unfinished outtake for I Shiver. Intended to be re-recorded as a b-side for a potential single from With Distance (possibly "When You Go"?), but that never materialised.
lyrics
If I could travel back in time
I'd give myself a body, give myself a body
In which I could feel beautiful
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
It hits me hard
But don't tell me it's not far
I know the truth
And I have nothing to lose
Go, go, go, don't resist it
Turn, turn, turn, don't you miss it
Switch off the lights and take cover
Don't make a sound 'til it's over
If I could travel back in time
I'd give myself a body, give myself a body
In which I could feel beautiful
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
I lose control
I learn to spit out all my bile and vitriol
I know where I am
But that doesn't change what I am
Stab, stab, stab and then twist it
Rip out the knife, then your fist hits
Lines start to blur in between you
Who's not to say that it's not true?
If I could travel back in, travel back in time
I'd give myself a body, give myself a body
In which I could feel beautiful
My only regret is being born
If I could travel back in time
I'd give myself a body, give myself a body
In which I could feel beautiful
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
My only regret is being born
Oh, whoa oh
Oh, whoa oh
Oh, whoa oh
Oh, whoa oh
And I try as hard as I can to try to live with how I am
I push it to the back of my mind and I try not to look in the mirror
And I try to reconcile that I'll never be the way I want
I'll always be existing in a form that I'll never like
And I am trying to be happy, and I am trying to be happy
I'm busy just existing, and something feels missing, but it's something that I'll never have
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